I'll go shut down myself. <English>

Seriously, I don't know what to say anymore. 

I mean I really don't know. 

Wow.

It's just too much I can't figure why.

First, why people always get so "physical", make comments about my appearance or I don't know, style? 

I was born this way and I have to wake up every morning in this body and see myself through the mirror. I can't change the way I look and if I can, it is a sin, I shall not do that. 

Second, my attitude. Yes, I am young, sometimes too young. That means you can tell that I can't do this thing and that thing and stuff, I can't blablabla. If you really care, I mean really CARE. Tell me what I am supposed to do. HELP ME to improve. Not just stating me that I am so lalala that I can't lalala. Pointing all my flaws. Stop underestimating, okay? And also overestimating, I am a growing person. If you just do harm, you can just leave. I don't need you. Yeah, every "you" exists in the world. I'm not a toy,okay? Please don't laugh at me all day. I'm not a joke. If you still think I'm one, go home and see me in 5 years to 10. Tell me what I did wrong, tell me what I am just too stupid to realize. Tell me.

You don't see me crying. But "you" are the reason. So, please just stop, give me some room to grow. Please. Thank you.